On HiatusBlah. Yuck. Phooey!
I've looked over the blogging I've done lately and can't stand it. Bland, namby-pamby, sanitized snapshots-of-life that (surprise!) fail to draw many people here to read. They wouldn't draw me, either.
I've got a lot of stuff bubbling in my head, but I don't post it here because I don't feel like fighting over it, or shocking or offending people, or otherwise letting myself in for grief, worry and/or criticism I'd otherwise not have to deal with. I'm afraid to be honest on my own website, and much as people insist it's no problem and tell me to go ahead, my internal censor has taken over here, and from where I'm sitting that's an unhealthy state of affairs.
The crux of matters is this: I need to write, and my activity here has served to scratch the itch - but only partially. Time to scratch it for real. William Gibson (an author whom I respect) feels like it's difficult for him to reconcile the activity of blogging with that of writing; they create distinct internal "landscapes" that work out to be incompatible in his head. I'm not sure it works that way for me, but I do know that the writing I do here isn't really the kind of writing I want to do, or to be known for.
So: this isn't good-bye; I'm sure I'll post updates here from time to time, because there are several people who have become accustomed to keeping up with me through Brain Squeezings. Heck, once I get a better picture of who I'm turning into and what I want to say to the world, I may well come back here, renovate the place, and take it in a new direction.
...But this is my line in the sand. Brain Squeezings has been a lot of fun, and I've met some wonderful and fascinating people through it, but I'm not going to take my half-measures here as a primary writing outlet any more.
By the way, any of those wonderful and fascinating people who want to contact me via e-mail are of course welcome to do so: email@example.com is still alive and well, and I think personal, one-on-one communication is probably more in line with what I'm trying to do anyway.